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> Tuesday, August 31, 2004
5:18 PM

2dae jus totally sux man, shouldn't hav worn trac pants cos so damn hot.go 2 sch in da mornin n had 2 do sum kind of stupid exercise, u noe wavin our arms about in da air lyk mad ppl.k dey not happi bout mos students not doin so da damn ppl made us do da exercise again n again so sian.k den is talent quest la but hor my stoopid class lor, las 1 2 go in da hall n got no space liao so da damn fuckin mr lim hor ask us 2 sit behind other classes lor. of course ppl not happi la n grumble n jus nice at dat time i was grumblin he was standin in front of me.n he said in my face 2 stop makin dat sound, n dat i was not an animal.i animal? wat n insult , he's so da damn idiot bastard fuckin hell asshole. luckily i controlled my temper n did not said those wordz out loud if not ah i sure go dc 1 ah or worse internal suspension.den hor da bastard still not happi leh shouted again n said dat he giv instructions we jolly well follow.he tink he wat discipline master liao bu qi isit? if da whole sch bash him up ah, he still got power 2 control us meh?wah lao he totally ruin my dae.k talent quest was nice cept 4 da dunno wat grp called da chorale, sing so high pitch n i can't even understand a word.chorale is meant 4 alot of ppl sing 1, if so lttle ppl where da voice can be heard?k 1st time i c sum t'chers so wild, standin up n wavin their hands lyk mad.anywaz got bac my maths result liao, luckily nv fail n i got a1, actually i wasn't expectin dat.tot of goin bac 2 pri sch cos i miss it so much but go dere oso no t'cher will recognize me 1 la cos i alwaz unnotis n it's not nice goin bac 2 visit da t'chers witout prezzies.sigh.....wonder if i should hav gone but i wasn't feelin too well so tink nvm la, anywaz can alwaz go bac anytime.good thing 2mrw holidae so i can laze around, YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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> Monday, August 30, 2004
4:17 PM

saturdae was da worst band practice ever, k i admit dat i had worser ones but anyway sumtin really digustin happened.i dun wanna talk bout it cos sure got ppl say sumtin bout it 1.anywaz, durin 'toot' da tuba senior talk 2 me n ask y eileen nv cum liao, sigh.....i wonder y no 1 said anything bout her quittin n i gotta tell dem da reason she's not here.finally sum1 realise my existence in dere, after so long i nv went out for lunch den got i person ask if i ate lunch, how weird.2dae da t'chers all except for maths giv bac all da common test papers.wah lao this is such a big blow for me 2 accept.k la sum of da results were quite ok especially lit but da mos disappointin 1 is da eng 1 lor, so lan my result.k lets put it in a nice way, i got 4 a1s, 1 a2 n 1 b4.c now 4 those of u who noe my marks, it seems lyk i got much higher.k enough of exam stuff.sigh 2dae i got angry again, ever since i 'exploded' , i hav trouble keepin my temper in control dunno y.haiz.......mus learn how 2 keep my temper in control if not ah , will get high blood pressure 1.so majorly bored now, 2morrow got t'cher's dae n i dunno wat da heck 2 wear, but tink i will wear sch uniform la cos da idea of me turnin up in sch in PT kit is so weird.dunno wat else write liao >_<

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> Friday, August 27, 2004
5:44 PM

the world iz jus so unfair, some ppl can get ever so good results without studyin at all while sum hav 2 slog so hard 4 dat lttle mark.sum ppl hav many good frenz round dem who truly care while sum lives in a world of loneliness n hopes jus 4 1 special fren 2 come along in their life.haiz........k enough of crappin liao.2dae iz da worst dae ever , gotta go round sellin stupid pens.i now den realise dat sellin things on da street is not as easy, u hav 2 lyk smile at so many ppl n ask dozens of times b4 sum 1 finally donates.so actually i go somerset but i decided 2 go wif my frenz to dhoby ghaut, k we went 2 mcdonals n had lunch b4 goin 2 c instruments at yamaha, k i admit, da instruments r really beeyootiful , i felt lyk buyin all of dem but of course i no money la.maybe nxt time when i rich, i gona hav a mini band 2 play 4 me at home, hahahahahazzz, dat will surely nv cum true 1 la.anywaz i not good at sellin things cos i alwaz approach da wrong ppl n get rejected 1, wah lao i dunno how much i walk ah but i so damn tired.other ppl so good, sold all their pens but me, i hav a bunch of pens left, how pathetic.k 2dae besides sellin pens , it's monica b'dae so HAPPY BIRTHDAE MONICA!!!wah she so lucky lor, so many ppl giv her prezzies, k la not many but still she so lucky, when it waz my b'dae, no 1 actually remembered, so i went round skool without any1 sayin even a happi b'dae 2 me.so sad sob sob....ya i noe myself dat i not popular so watever, i will jus hav 2 buy my own belated prezzies but of course it's different fr ppl givin u prezzies.she say i so lucky lor, i mean wat crap so wat if my parents celebrate my b'dae, i dun feel at all lucky cos i ask dem 2 celebrate 1.nvm bout it, i jus hav 2 accept the fac dat i m not popular n iz nv gona b in future.k i was a jerk b4 we set off 2 sell da pens cos dunno y la, anywaz i jus wanna apologise 4 actin lyk sum major pain in da neck.haiz, got mega bad news ah, 2morrow got *toot* which i hate cos i dun wanna sit dere n feel all left out, shall i skip?dun tink so leh cos i would b in a veri dangerous position, anywaz i go tink tink bout it 1st la.i wonder if i should continue cos i reali find it sickenin 2 go dere lor.

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> Thursday, August 26, 2004
8:57 PM

yesterdae, thunders roar and rain poured outside, wat a perfect mood for arguments.ya i fight wif da vice-chairman, well not actually jus between me n her but it involves da whole class.k so t'cher announce dat we had 2 chg place lor, n grumble grumble fr every1 cos dey not 2gather wif their frenz den hor ppl start lyk sayin 'eh y me n monica alwaz sit 2gather 1'.every1 very da not happi lor, den hor da vice-chairman hor suddenly shouted y i n monica 2gather lor n dunno 4 wat reason la but i shouted bac at her.da whole class fell silent n i waz boilin mad.da vice-chairman cried lor, but it is not i make her cry 1 la.she think she herself da onli 1 got feelins isit?i oso hav leh, n i can't take dis kind of la attitude ppl gimme lor.she think she cry t'cher will giv way isit?luckily no ah, eventhough hor t'cher softhearted but not softhearted until lyk dat.anywaz, i dun wanna talk bout dat liao.yesterdae we played soccer, wah lao i kic lyk dunno wat, da ball can't go more den few feet, so pathetic.k 2dae, nutin much happened xcept baked cupcakes, ya i too careless, 4got mus put lttle egg at a time so i put so much n da mixture ruined, look lyk wormz.anywaz, very nice 2 eat, i luv it but da jiahao hor, bring bac all da big fully filled cupcakes n gimme da so tiny ones.i do mos of da work k.t'cher giv out home-econs paper, k la i think i got quite ok, but i found out i so careless n gav away 3 marks. 2dae luckily no IT cos i dun wanna c 'him' but stay bac 4 goeg project, n got home quite late.2morrow sumore got 2 ask ppl 4 donations, so sian but good thing no lessons, yayy!!! bad thing, i gotta wear tie, so damn shit lor.

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> Tuesday, August 24, 2004
5:58 PM

2dae da dae is so long, got geog exam which i alredi failed.i jus noe it cos ah ya i made so many mistakes, nvm anywaz cos i can't turn bac time liao.nxt is music lesson which i use 2 quite lyk but not now cos got 2 learn bout da entire orchestra, lyk how da instruments sound lyk n where da players sit, which is so sian.i jus hate music theory, i would much rather do practical n spend my time bangin da percussion instruments.luckily da teacher nv mention bout band members, cos eileen said she ask those who r in band 2 brin up da instruments 2 play or sumtin.wah lao, siao ah if ask me 2 brin da instrument up, so heavy lor.haiz.........ltr ch , t'cher giv out da papers, ok la at least i got a1 but still way far fr my expectation.las period is eng n got julia gabriel so got 2 go 2 arr1.my group members r siao 1 i tell u, argue n argue n treat me da director invisible.finally i can't take it anymore lor so i shouted at dem 2 keep quiet.every1 stared n chin chow said wah i veri fierce n told mr andy dat he noe who da director is liao.hehehe, if i dun raise my voice i dunno when den dey will quieten down a bit ah, but still after dat dey jus argue n argue lor.no harmony 1 n da kimberly hor sumore kic my leg leh, i gonna get her fired, hahaha.anywaz, everythin still kind of disorganized cos sum 1 dis sum 1 dat, dey dun even gimme a chance 2 speak, n so i hav 2 alwaz shout lyk mad now n my throat not feelin too good.

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> Saturday, August 21, 2004
12:50 AM

yesterdae, met eileen n she told me lotz of things bout band.actually very funny hor, she not in band liao but she noe more bout band den me leh.anywaz she said she talk 2 our sec4 senior n say she wah very good ahhhhhhh nv pump her junior 1, dunno whether isit true or not ah but she sumore tell me dat if our sec4 senior around hor, she would not hav quit band 1.ah ya sec4 senior around so wat, she gona leave dis year liao so how much longer can she protect us fr bein pumped? i realli dunno leh.she oso say hor my sec3 senior las time sec1 veri da rude 2 her senior 1, sumore scold her leh but my sec4 senior NEVER EVER PUMPED HER OR SCOLDED HER BACK.i mean band las time got dis kind of senior meh, so good tolerance,i dun really b'lieve .if i ever had a junior lyk dat hor i surely pump her 1, but not too much la cos i kind ma.it seems lyk wat eileen tell me iz a fairytale.she went on sayin wat normal acad da band members can't b any form of leaders in band , dat's accordin 2 da teacher la.wah lao so bad 1 i mean wat's wrong wif normal acad ppl ?i feel so srry 4 dem .haiz .......den another b member came n talk 2 us lor n say she wanna quit, wah da moment eileen heard dat hor she so happi n kept talkin 2 dat gurl askin me 2 shut up cos i m not quittin.so rude lor .den hor she tell da gurl dat whenever she go band da seniors dun care bout her 1 lor, she said dat da seniors care bout me more, n now she leave liao dey more care bout me.who wans deir care?i dunno wan ah, cos dey pay too much attention 2 me liao n da moment i make mistake dey all lyk noe 1.until now ah eileen still mad at me leh say dat time da senior scold her but nv scold me 1.i sort of wish dey did cos if dey did i would hav quit band n b free of all sufferins.ah ya enough of band liao la, i jus hope next week dun hav cos ya i dun wanna go dere n face dem n mostly b'cos of my ulcer, still hurts n wat excuse i gonna giv dem? say i got terrible ulcer ah, its so lame.i noe i m riskin alot by publishing dis online , wat if lyk one of da b members c it but i jus writing wat i think, so no offence.

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> Monday, August 16, 2004
4:45 PM

sigh.............i m not very happy now cos da damn com, alwaz hangin, makes me so mad.how i wish i could bash da f***in thing up. i think i gonna fail chinese, i mean how can i memorise those bloody words, it's not lyk i hav super memory.i dun even noe wat's comin out 4 lit, bloody teacher oso y nv tell.wat kind of donkey skool is this anyway? where teachers all suck.good thing no band, cos i not in da rite mood for it.i mean everytime i go dere i alwaz so lonely 1, no more eileen liao n i m not dat kind of enthu junior who can laugh along wildly wif da seniors, so i go dere pretty much useless.i jus hate it so much, wonder y i join in 1st place, now it jus make me suffer.ah ya when will she be back?i doubt though if she will b back, she sound so determined on quittin, i mean if i were her i zao jiu quit liao, i jus can take it bein scolded by ppl lyk wat onli 1 or 2 years my senior, it is horrible.gtg go do da damn asshole work so sayonara........

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> Sunday, August 15, 2004
7:47 PM

arghh!!!i can't believe i so dumb, it iz da worse thing dat happened 2 me.k this iz wat happened yesterdae.i waz jus wandering about in da balcony n waz about 2 com out when SPLAT my whole face hit da glass sliding door.wah lao i so stupid rite?i cannot even see da light reflection on da door when i comin out. so in da end i got a big cut on my lips ,wat m i suppose 2 do ah?it is so ugly.i oso cannot believe dat da impact waz so big , da bang actually made my glasses crook u noe n of course damage 2 my lips.i noe whoever reads this will make fun of me 1 so pls try not 2 mention dis thing again.it is so ughhh!!!!

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> Friday, August 13, 2004
5:48 PM

yoz........haha dat's my new way of saying hi.kay 2dae quite awful cos i got back my sci class test paper, it is so like disappointing from wat i wan 2 get so kinda feeling sad but hey i can try better in other tests.ya yesterdae was quite bad too, ok everyday 2 me iz bad.dere's this bossy sec2 senior keep bossing us around leh.i hate seniors alwaz bully juniors wan, he sumore say got practical n theory test leh set by him.sigh, i nv knew this cca is so much like band, i thought no seniors around but now suddenly comes along 1.da only good thing is no band , yayyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!i dun wanna serve da punishment yet so good 4 me dat dere is no band.

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> Thursday, August 12, 2004
9:24 AM

Okay, this is my first time writing.......................so i dunno wat 2 write.

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